sometimes it just felt this way..

cried alittle again in the morning..

i seriously dont know what to do..

got a text from bf..

dono to be happy or not..

hmm..

missed him alot but maybe he just dont realised it..

same shit happens again..

eye swollen..

have to send brother off to airport at 5pm..

mei came..

luckily i still have her..

so nice of her to just come & accompany me to send my brother off..

no matter what..

i'm still thankful tat i got her..

went pizza hut for dinner..

then train-ed home..

as usual..

missed bf alot..

was waiting for his text but just received some..

hmm..

i wish i could communicate with him more..

but yea..

i guess i just dont understand him..

played a prank on him..

he got real mad..

hmm..

sometimes i knew i went too far..

but i did those is simply just want to get his attention..

reached home ard 9 plus..

still no text from bf..

he sure is mad like hell..sigh..

cried again..

i just feel like crying, dono why..

at some point of time, i'll just stone then suddenly my tears just flow down from my cheeks..

i'm crying again..unknowingly..

its alr 3 plus am..still no replies..

i'm desperate..

i just feel like i'm living a single life..

or worst..

i felt neglected,

i felt tat i'm not important,

i felt tat i'm not cared by you anymore,

i felt tat i'm a burden to you,

i felt useless,

i felt tat i only bring you trouble & stress to you..

this feeling sucks..

& am crying again..:'(

i'm just really really hurt..

i dont know what to do..

now..

my head hurts like hell..

am not gonna think anymore..

maybe i'm too paranoid..sigh..

:'(