TGIF!!! ♥

"its Friday again.." yay-ness!!!

yup yup..

its Friday again..:D

today is the 2nd last of my Hiphop 1 dance lesson..

cant wait to go to the next level..

haha..:D

after lesson, met dear..:D

had dinner at waraku with mei, bd & bf..:))

soooo happy..:)

misses him muchie..

haha!!

slack ard the restaurant until it closes..

then home sweet home..:D

had a great time today..

♥ to ♥ talk..

TO ME.."HE'S THE ONE.."

BUT...TO HIM, AM I JUST ANOTHER ONE??

OR MORE THAN THAT??

meeting bf later..

so eggcited..

haven't been seeing him for like 3 days..>_<

woke up ard 11 plus am..

then get ready to buy some groceries..

went to Daiso with bro..

had fun time shopping..:D

haha..

got all the materials tat i needed..:D

woohoo!!!

so happy..

especially my hearts chocolate silicon..:DD

yea baby!!!

then then went home happily with my silicon & stuffs for bf's surprise..:D

made hearts chocolate for dearie..:))

of course its made out of many many love from me..:))

haha..

bf bought me to holland village for dinner..

cos i never been there before..:D

tats my surprise from bf..

haha..sweet thou..:))

my bf always like to take me to the places that i've missed out in my whole 20 years in Singapore..

haha..so grateful to have him..

after dinner, went to IMM..

walked walked, hang ard & chatted..

chatted abt many many things..

chatted abt me, him, us, my frens, his frens etc..

as usual..talked abt some sensitive stuff & i teared..

den bf also almost teared..

then..yeap..

things are okay..

thou he still needs to improve..

but i'll wait for the day to come..:))

hope he'll do well for his last year..

"JIAYOUS SOTONG!!!! THOU KUKU IS NOT SO SMART BUT KUKU WILL ALWAYS BE CHEERING FOR YOU!!!!"

♥ BOYFRIEND ALOT..>u<

depressed..

in the outside, i'm trying very hard to be like this..

but in the inside i'm feeling like this..

eventually i'm gonna be like this..

then, i'll realised..

but after lots of crying, i'll feel better somehow..

but those thoughts will still wonder in my mind..

so..yea..feel really terrible..>_<

now..i dont dare to meet my bf..

cos i'm afraid i'm not up to his standard..:((

i've got no face to see anyone..

anyways..

i'm gonna change no matter what..

i'm gonna be a better person..:))

*i hope*

so i must JIAYOUS!!!!

because...

:((

WARNING !!!! : LONG EMO POST AHEAD..

DONT READ IF U'RE NOT INTERESTED IN RANTINGS OR EMO-NESS..

i just want a simple love..

is that so hard??

i want the whole world to know..

is that so hard??
i want to show ppl that not only you're "good looking", strong, kind but also funny & silly at the same time..

is that sth to be shameful of??

i want a guy to carry my handbag..

is that shameful?? i dont know..

thou i did not receive as much as i give but what i wanted is that so hard to please me or am i that hard to please??

i dont know..or maybe you did pleased me even when u're unwilling just to see me smile or what..

i do not expect anything in return but i just want to show you to ppl..

is that so hard??

everything that i want to do is because i'm proud to have you..

is that so hard??

maybe i just dont get it, maybe i dont understand him enough..:((

hmmmm...

i just hate his pride & ego..

i know everyone needs that but....sigh..

never mind..

EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING..

i've never regret but i guess i'm too harsh on me..:((

hmmmm.................again..

enough of this..maybe i shall pin it down deeper in my diary..>_<

felt soooooo useless..-_-

i want to cry..-.-

LOL..

WARNING!!! : SINGLISH AHEAD...

ALL I DO IS COS I LOVE HIM WHAT!!!!

is that so embarrassing??? :((

JIAYOUS ROLINDA!!!! :))))

SMILES & BE HAPPY!!

MUST BE CONTENTED & THANKFUL THAT U'RE FAT & THERE'S SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU!!!

STOP COMPLAINING ALR & DO WHAT HE HOPED!!

GIVE HIM UR BEST!!!

but its so hard..:((

i want to go thailand..>_<

i misses thailand..>_<

maybe i want to avoid these..-.-

i really dono what to do lah........!!!!!!!!!!!

is like i felt soo happy yst then all crushed today..

why cant i feel happy everyday?????? *arggggh*

stupid me..>_<

feeling so shitty..>_<

sometimes i just feel that i'm not meant for you..

i...really dont know..

everything seems its my bad..*urgh* x/

i'm just not perfect..what to do???

now i seriously envy those "perfect" girls..sighhhh

now i so hate myself..:((

i need to change!!!! i want to change!!!

dont believe!!! i'll prove it to u!!! but still i did not expect it to be coming from you..sigh..

but if wanted sth more den i think i gotta change sth alr..

my partner probably..LOL..

kk..i'm an adult alr..

i think i really really must stop being so childish alr..

i cannot make him embarrassed anymore !!! :(

but..

imma happy girl..^6^

meeting bf today..:D

wee..

meet him at city hall today..

went to marina square..

walk walk, see see, look look..

haha..

had thai dinner at shaw house..:DD

misses thai food loads..

had phat thai & pineapple fried rice, kang kong & fried calamari..:))

den walked to esplanade..^-^

chatted..

hmmm..

some topic is what i expected..

quite sad or kind of disappointed inside..

but anyways i'm willing to change..

cos i love him..

but yea..guess he wouldnt do the same as me thou..

went to bugis National library..

chatted..

took some photos..:D

den train-ed home..

had a great day with bf today..:))

suddenly i loved the way he locked my neck..haha!!

woooo...lets dance ^-^

yeap..

its friday again..:DDD

having cramps..*arrrrgh*

feeling quite uncomfortable today..

bought hot chocolate at coffee bean before dance lesson..:D

*nice*

felt good after that..^-^

meet bf at 313 then find his sister at the bar..

i can say, his sister looks really pretty & elegant & so classy..:))

she is so pretty until i got mesmerized by her..haha

silly me..;)

then headed to dance lesson..

so nice of bf to send me to the studio then he went to accompany his sister..

lesson was great..

but body wave..

errrrr....-_-

haha..

had fun..:))

continued the dance routine..

haha..

after lesson, mei, baodong, bf & me went to eat dinner..:))

missed bf so much..^-^

then home sweet home..:D

&& bf got Gold for his NAFA test..:D

so proud of him..teehees

dreams..^-^

everyone has dreams..

we dream even when we're a small kid..

some have BIG dreams, some have small dreams..

some came true but some did not..

some are hard, some worked hard..

some gave up cos they find it its impossible to make it come true..

some strive for it no matter how hard it is..

i do have dreams too..:))

school dreams, career dreams, love dreams, etc..

i remembered vividly that when i was little, my dream is when i grow up, i want to be a policewoman/lawyer, doctor/surgeon, kindergarden teacher, singer/songwriter/pianist..

&& of course my love life..haha!!

when i grow up, i want to marry my dream guy..

silly me..haha!!

so those with dreams..

hang it there..:D

i believe all of you can do it..:DD