depressed..

in the outside, i'm trying very hard to be like this..

but in the inside i'm feeling like this..

eventually i'm gonna be like this..

then, i'll realised..

but after lots of crying, i'll feel better somehow..

but those thoughts will still wonder in my mind..

so..yea..feel really terrible..>_<

now..i dont dare to meet my bf..

cos i'm afraid i'm not up to his standard..:((

i've got no face to see anyone..

anyways..

i'm gonna change no matter what..

i'm gonna be a better person..:))

*i hope*

so i must JIAYOUS!!!!

because...