when baby's not around..

hmm..
its the 9th day that baby's not around..
though i just met him on the 8th of july..
but, i feel like i didnt see him for decades..>_<

miss him loads loads..
whenever he's not around, i just feel so lonely and insecure..
feel like crying..
miss his everything..
all i could do was hug the plushies that he gave me & keep me warm as if he was right beside me..
cant wait for the end of his course..>_<