i thought everything is gonna be okay soon..

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have been trying hard to make myself not to think too much..

i've used to being back to my old self,

i've used to being alone again,

i've used to not getting texts from him alr,

i've used to you not calling me dear or baobei & those sweet texts,

i've used to not expecting ur replies..

used to being single all again..

even though i got a bf..

its good alr tat i even Knew tat i had one..

used to his busy-ness..

until he has no time for me..

but have time for his frens..:(

sigh..sad max..

if he can have time to chill with his frens,

i rather choose to be his fren rather than his girlfriend..

cos i dont even feel like i'm his girlfriend..

oh wells..:'((

what can i do??

i have a boyfriend but like i dont have one..

so whats the diff..

thou i might seems like i dont care but inside of me is tearing apart..

it hurts so badly..

i just want to cry..

& he dont even care..

what can i do??

i really dont know..

does he really still love me?

or his love for me has alr expired..?

all i can do is to envy those ppl who are ard me..

why?

why me?

why envy?

i thought envy ppl is not a good thing?

i envy ppl with a happy family,

i envy ppl with a complete family,

i envy ppl who have someone to love..

& tat someone would love them back..:((

sigh..

basically i envy abt everything tat ppl have & i dont have..-_-

weird..

hmmm..guessed its just my life..

i have to accept it right?

sigh..:'(

i thought i'm the happiest girl in the world..

but...ya..i'm wrong..:'(

& i ended up being lonelier than ever..:'(

sigh...

ya I THOUGHT..:'(

{ PS : 忙碌，开始变成习惯，习惯没有时间，我们像陌生人不再关心谁 的明天。。}