best day ever!!!

"being able to see my dear is the best day ever!!!" ♥

met samantha for brunch.

then meet dearest at cityhall..

went to Marina Bay..

had early dinner at Mr Curry..

super nice can!!! OMG!!!

had the best dinner ever..:D

haha..

the curry omelet is super nice..haha

then went to suntec city walk walk..

hanged ard esplanade..

chatted, joked..

then train-ed home..

luckily still have last train..

haha..

dear panicked..

he thought there's no more train services to his home..

haha..

watched a korean drama with dear..

called 《玛丽外宿中》..

got addicted with the 亲爱的..

haha..

&& so loving dear text me 爱爱..

haha!!

okok..

tats so mushy..

haha..shall stop tat..

so loving my dearest..:D

TGIF!!! ♥

"its Friday again.." yay-ness!!!

yup yup..

its Friday again..:D

today is the 2nd last of my Hiphop 1 dance lesson..

cant wait to go to the next level..

haha..:D

after lesson, met dear..:D

had dinner at waraku with mei, bd & bf..:))

soooo happy..:)

misses him muchie..

haha!!

slack ard the restaurant until it closes..

then home sweet home..:D

had a great time today..

♥ to ♥ talk..

TO ME.."HE'S THE ONE.."

BUT...TO HIM, AM I JUST ANOTHER ONE??

OR MORE THAN THAT??

meeting bf later..

so eggcited..

haven't been seeing him for like 3 days..>_<

woke up ard 11 plus am..

then get ready to buy some groceries..

went to Daiso with bro..

had fun time shopping..:D

haha..

got all the materials tat i needed..:D

woohoo!!!

so happy..

especially my hearts chocolate silicon..:DD

yea baby!!!

then then went home happily with my silicon & stuffs for bf's surprise..:D

made hearts chocolate for dearie..:))

of course its made out of many many love from me..:))

haha..

bf bought me to holland village for dinner..

cos i never been there before..:D

tats my surprise from bf..

haha..sweet thou..:))

my bf always like to take me to the places that i've missed out in my whole 20 years in Singapore..

haha..so grateful to have him..

after dinner, went to IMM..

walked walked, hang ard & chatted..

chatted abt many many things..

chatted abt me, him, us, my frens, his frens etc..

as usual..talked abt some sensitive stuff & i teared..

den bf also almost teared..

then..yeap..

things are okay..

thou he still needs to improve..

but i'll wait for the day to come..:))

hope he'll do well for his last year..

"JIAYOUS SOTONG!!!! THOU KUKU IS NOT SO SMART BUT KUKU WILL ALWAYS BE CHEERING FOR YOU!!!!"

♥ BOYFRIEND ALOT..>u<

depressed..

in the outside, i'm trying very hard to be like this..

but in the inside i'm feeling like this..

eventually i'm gonna be like this..

then, i'll realised..

but after lots of crying, i'll feel better somehow..

but those thoughts will still wonder in my mind..

so..yea..feel really terrible..>_<

now..i dont dare to meet my bf..

cos i'm afraid i'm not up to his standard..:((

i've got no face to see anyone..

anyways..

i'm gonna change no matter what..

i'm gonna be a better person..:))

*i hope*

so i must JIAYOUS!!!!

because...

:((

WARNING !!!! : LONG EMO POST AHEAD..

DONT READ IF U'RE NOT INTERESTED IN RANTINGS OR EMO-NESS..

i just want a simple love..

is that so hard??

i want the whole world to know..

is that so hard??
i want to show ppl that not only you're "good looking", strong, kind but also funny & silly at the same time..

is that sth to be shameful of??

i want a guy to carry my handbag..

is that shameful?? i dont know..

thou i did not receive as much as i give but what i wanted is that so hard to please me or am i that hard to please??

i dont know..or maybe you did pleased me even when u're unwilling just to see me smile or what..

i do not expect anything in return but i just want to show you to ppl..

is that so hard??

everything that i want to do is because i'm proud to have you..

is that so hard??

maybe i just dont get it, maybe i dont understand him enough..:((

hmmmm...

i just hate his pride & ego..

i know everyone needs that but....sigh..

never mind..

EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING..

i've never regret but i guess i'm too harsh on me..:((

hmmmm.................again..

enough of this..maybe i shall pin it down deeper in my diary..>_<

felt soooooo useless..-_-

i want to cry..-.-

LOL..

WARNING!!! : SINGLISH AHEAD...

ALL I DO IS COS I LOVE HIM WHAT!!!!

is that so embarrassing??? :((

JIAYOUS ROLINDA!!!! :))))

SMILES & BE HAPPY!!

MUST BE CONTENTED & THANKFUL THAT U'RE FAT & THERE'S SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU!!!

STOP COMPLAINING ALR & DO WHAT HE HOPED!!

GIVE HIM UR BEST!!!

but its so hard..:((

i want to go thailand..>_<

i misses thailand..>_<

maybe i want to avoid these..-.-

i really dono what to do lah........!!!!!!!!!!!

is like i felt soo happy yst then all crushed today..

why cant i feel happy everyday?????? *arggggh*

stupid me..>_<

feeling so shitty..>_<

sometimes i just feel that i'm not meant for you..

i...really dont know..

everything seems its my bad..*urgh* x/

i'm just not perfect..what to do???

now i seriously envy those "perfect" girls..sighhhh

now i so hate myself..:((

i need to change!!!! i want to change!!!

dont believe!!! i'll prove it to u!!! but still i did not expect it to be coming from you..sigh..

but if wanted sth more den i think i gotta change sth alr..

my partner probably..LOL..

kk..i'm an adult alr..

i think i really really must stop being so childish alr..

i cannot make him embarrassed anymore !!! :(

but..

imma happy girl..^6^

meeting bf today..:D

wee..

meet him at city hall today..

went to marina square..

walk walk, see see, look look..

haha..

had thai dinner at shaw house..:DD

misses thai food loads..

had phat thai & pineapple fried rice, kang kong & fried calamari..:))

den walked to esplanade..^-^

chatted..

hmmm..

some topic is what i expected..

quite sad or kind of disappointed inside..

but anyways i'm willing to change..

cos i love him..

but yea..guess he wouldnt do the same as me thou..

went to bugis National library..

chatted..

took some photos..:D

den train-ed home..

had a great day with bf today..:))

suddenly i loved the way he locked my neck..haha!!

woooo...lets dance ^-^

yeap..

its friday again..:DDD

having cramps..*arrrrgh*

feeling quite uncomfortable today..

bought hot chocolate at coffee bean before dance lesson..:D

*nice*

felt good after that..^-^

meet bf at 313 then find his sister at the bar..

i can say, his sister looks really pretty & elegant & so classy..:))

she is so pretty until i got mesmerized by her..haha

silly me..;)

then headed to dance lesson..

so nice of bf to send me to the studio then he went to accompany his sister..

lesson was great..

but body wave..

errrrr....-_-

haha..

had fun..:))

continued the dance routine..

haha..

after lesson, mei, baodong, bf & me went to eat dinner..:))

missed bf so much..^-^

then home sweet home..:D

&& bf got Gold for his NAFA test..:D

so proud of him..teehees

dreams..^-^

everyone has dreams..

we dream even when we're a small kid..

some have BIG dreams, some have small dreams..

some came true but some did not..

some are hard, some worked hard..

some gave up cos they find it its impossible to make it come true..

some strive for it no matter how hard it is..

i do have dreams too..:))

school dreams, career dreams, love dreams, etc..

i remembered vividly that when i was little, my dream is when i grow up, i want to be a policewoman/lawyer, doctor/surgeon, kindergarden teacher, singer/songwriter/pianist..

&& of course my love life..haha!!

when i grow up, i want to marry my dream guy..

silly me..haha!!

so those with dreams..

hang it there..:D

i believe all of you can do it..:DD

oh happy day..

"i've never met a guy who loves me so much..♥"

this few days have been hanging out with boyfriend..:))

not every single day thou..but every monday & saturday..:))

sometimes friday..if boyfriend is free or is somewhere near my dance lesson area..:D

thou its quite hard for him to cope but i hope he wont get so lethargic everyday..>_<

why POLYs have soooooo much assignments & projects to!!!!!!!!!!!!! *argh*

not even i pity my boyfriend, my mei also & her boyfriend & of course my bestie..>_<

all so stressed out..:((

*heartache*

tough right..>_<

but still i'm contented that no matter how busy or how tired boyfriend is, he still take the effort to meet me..*touched*

love him lots lots..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

when i'm happy, i go "hmm hmm hmm"..

weeeee!!!!!!! its Friday!!!!!

yeap..:D

finally..the day i've been always waiting for has arrive..:D

hees..

had dance lesson..:D

am almost late for lesson..

cos theres human jam..

i seriously hate taking public transport during public transport..*argh*

hate squeezing with people..-_-

yeap..rushed to scape & luckily i made it on time..:D

*wooohoo*

did warm up, & continue with the new dance steps..

after dance, went KFC to have late dinner..

*yums*

then bus-ed to Bugis with mei & bd..

just nice dear & his frens are at Bugis too & they're abt to leave..:))

den dear meet mei, bd & me at Bugis street..:))

*hees* sooooo happy...

it have been like ages i didnt see him alr..

missed BF loads..^-^

ate durian with mei, bd & dear..:D

hang ard then train-ed home..:D

hees..

a dream is a wish ur heart makes..^6^

"i want to be your princess someday"..

hmm..have you ever wondered to be treated like a princess?

i think most girls do..including me..:))

who doesn want to be treated like a princess..? haha..

being treated like a princess is like being pampered, being loved by someone & even a sad story can be a happy one..:D

but i think i'll never have a chance to..hmm..

but but i'm alr thankful for what i have now..:)

being pampered its not a thing for me..cos i'm not born in a pampered family anyways..

so not really that important..haha

but sometimes i do envy those families or friends who have such a happy family..

LOL..am so silly..haha..

i just have to be me..:)

i need to change..hmm :/

things are not going so well as usual..

life is starting to have ups & downs soon..x/

jiayous ROLINDA!!!

& since am having holidays now..

shall do sth productive like start to go library to borrow some self motivation or self enhance book to read..just like my mei told me..:D

at least by reading it, it can give me some hope & it can improve me & can make me feel better..:)

things might not go according to what we planned..

hmmm..

things might not go according to what we planned right?

cos in life, there're lots of ups & downs, sometimes things will go as planned but sometimes things will not go as well as we planned..

so whats the use of planning?

or i can say i'll use planning as my guide line..

future is a mystery, people say future is for us to explore..:D

so why not just enjoy the journey & we might see something that we did not come across..:)

to me..that is life..:)

or maybe to others..i'm just simple minded..;)

a day w/o you will miss u like hell..

had marketing exam today..

shag..-_-

wanna wake up at 7am today but in the end delayed..

heh..

wake up at 9am instead..

awaken by the construction outside..

not so loud compared to last sat..

have my breakfast..

then headed to school for last min revision..

okay i know last min revision is bad..

but at least i rmbered everything..hahas..

but not all..*argh*

*guessed theres some problem with my brain cells..-_-*

reached school ard 10am ++..

went straight to the library to study..:D

then have my lunch ard 1pm++..

then exam starts at 3.45pm..

thank God that the essays that i've studied came out..:)) *hees*

i hope thou will not score as good but at least let me get a 'D', i'm contented..:D

haha..

after my exam, went to dear's school to look for him..:)

miss him much much..until i cannot tolerate..

so yeap..heh..

thou he's busy doing his work, i still want to see him..>_<

glad that he's not unhappy that i keep looking for him..*heh*

went to AMK hub to have our dinner at Ichiban..:D

yums..sushi..

have cravings for sushi after i've been working at sushi tei..*die*

is like i've been eating sushi for like almost 4 times a week..-_-

& not getting sick of eating it..weird uh..

haha..

anyways..

after dinner, went to get KOI..:D

then hang-ed ard the mall..

took circle line..

train-ed to paya lebar interchange..

hang-ed ard the station until 10pm then go home..

dear's having progress check on this work tmr so dont wanna take up his time to do his stuff..

then home sweet home..:D

misses dear alr..

& i love him loads..<3 why?

cos..

no guy would bend down & tie my shoe laces for me in my whole entire life other den my mom until i met my bf..*smiles* :')

no guy would care & protect me like my bf..

no guy would get worried abt me like my bf..

no guy would get panicked when i did not reply his textes like my bf..

no guy would get mad at me for keep saying that i've disturbed him like my bf..

no guy would crack up a random joke that would make me laugh like a fool other than my bf..

no guy would solve internet problems for me other than my bf..:)

no guy would hold my hands tightly & never let go like my bf..

no guy would hug me like my bf..

no guy would stand up for me like my bf..

& no guy would love me like my bf..<3

that is why i <3 my boyfriend..:D

he used to be the guy whom i hate but now..he was just kind of my perfect guy..>v< *hees*

thou we just started dating..

& everything is going well & sweet just like other r/s is, but we do not know what our future will be like..thus i'll cherish whatever i have now & prepare for the future..:)

shopping wif dear..:))

suppose to meet dearest today for lunch at 10.30am..

but he's late..-_-

as usual..haha..same as me..always got a habit of being late >_<..

but am trying to change..:D

wanna eat sushi..

but ate subway for lunch instead since dear had alr eaten his lunch..*humph*

anyways..he ate my cookie while i eat my wrap..:))

yum yum..:D

Subway is way better than Quinzno sub..^-^

then after lunch, went to converse & buy a shoe..:D

dear also wanna buy but the shop does not have his size..>_<

so i buy first..:))

den dear came to my house..

hang ard den decided to go orchard central to look for his shoe..:))

went orchard central..

a huge mall..:D

i didnt know theres this 12 floor mall in orchard..

oh man..>_< i'm such a kuku..-_-

yeaps..

bought a T-shirt for dear & my bro..:D

halfway when going to have our dinner, i got a tummy ache..>n<

guess its my gastric acting up..

everytime when i'm out..argh!! hate it ttm..

at first not much appetite but after i drink a cup of hot tea,

i feel better..:D

den after dinner, walked to Dhouby Ghuat mrt..

train-ed home..

went to get sushi from NTUC..

ate & chatted under the block & hang ard at the playground..

love all the small talks wif dear..:))

i'm happy & glad that i have him ard to care & protect me..:))

his my BESTEST FRIEND, BESTEST BROTHER & BESTEST BOYFRIEND i ever had!!! <3

am so happy!!! >v<

its friday..:)

was at home the whole day..

updating my blog, twitter-ing, facebook-ing, listening to music..:D

can't wait for dance lesson..

hees..:D

went to scape early today..

practice some of the up-bounce steps..

heh..

a proper dance routine today..

although not so good..>_<

but practice makes perfect right..:D

though i'm abit slow but i know i can do it..:D

after dance met dear & had botak jones as dinner..:D

had mini fish & chips..:D

hahas..happy happy..:))

bought gongcha & went to hang ard at scape after that..:D

went home ard 11pm ++..:D

hmmm..

sometimes i feel that i'm a bit retard or i got down syndrome or sth..

i just dont do things faster than other ppl..

& i tends to think slower than ppl..:(

i dont know why i will have that kind of thoughts & that really upset me..

i feel so useless..

i want to be intelligent, fast thinker, someone that ppl will go to..

sigh..but thats me..

i have to be optimistic..:D

& i believe that i sure have sth good in me..:))

jiayous ROLLIE..:D