New Year Eve!! :DD

dinner with daddy & gu gu's famil at Pan Pacific Hotel..
chua en lai was the MC..^-^ haha!! shuai..:DDD
daddy asked me to take a photo with him but i refuse to..heh.*shy*


dinner is awkward with my biao jie & her sister..-_-
don't really like them cos i don't know..
just maybe i feel inferior whenever i'm with them..
hmm..


anyways..
around 10 plus pm, dad allowed me to join my crazy clique to countdown for the new year at marina barrage..:DDD HAPPY!!! hees

i love my clique!!! :DDD
but we're going our separate ways soon..:(( *sadden*
but we'll sure keep in contact..:DDD haha!!!

Study...

meeting mei today after my class to do some assignments..

like finally i'm starting to do my assignments..*HOLY SHIT*!!!!! >_<

all assignments are due on the second week of new year & the first week of January is my birthday and i have exam the dat after my birthday..i'm in deep shit man >_<

my mei is gonna kill me if she sees this..oops >_< heh..

and procrastination is my WORST habit >_< especially in school work & exams..>_<

i think this shall be my new resolution..heh

i have to change on that man..

went for dinner around 7 plus i guess..

cos gastric is starting to act up..-_-

had pontian noodle for dinner..:DD

then hanged around the mall before we head home..

felt super sleepy while on our way back home..haha

had a great time with mei..^-^

dance dance dance..:DDD

meet mei after class for dance..:DDD
did some recap on the open house steps & yea..we kinda forgot the steps..:(((
but at least we manage to learn a short part of "郭書瑤 - honey" & "Jay Chou - mine mine" dance..:DDD weee!!!!

happy happy..:DDDD
after dance, went to have our dinner at AKB48 restaurant then bused home..:DD
&&& THANKYOU MEI for the BY2 90' 闹 now album!!! :DDDD
shoooo happy!!!!! hees..:DDD
MEI's the BEST!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ^-^

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!

suppose to be in Thailand for Christmas and New Year but this year, i'm spending it here, in Singapore..:'((
i missed my granny so bad..>_<

anyways..
went shopping as usual..haha!!!
have been shopping after i broke up with my ex..
but i'm THANKFUL for my ex, because of him, i've changed..A LOT!!
as in the way i dress & my thinking..no more naive rolinda..^-^
yeap..
enjoyed shopping Christmas presents for my family and friends..:DD

how i wish i could see snow..^-^

Christmas eve..

went to meet my boy..^-^ hees..

didnt expect to have someone to celebrate Christmas with..

but the weather sucks..>_< it rained..

yea on Christmas..>_< WHYYYYY!??!?!??!

anyways..

am super happy to meet him can..:DD hees..

we're both hungry..>_<

shops & restuarants starts to close..& it's raining outside..

we have no where to go..

but luckily i brought my umbrella along..^-^

wanted to take bus to suntec city there but too many people..

so, our last resort is to use the umbrella & get ourselves half wet..-_-

but it's quite romantic though..HAHAHAAHAHA!!! *shy*

i remembered my first date at the zoo..

it rained too..

but this time, the one who holds me and the umbrella is a different person..

then, i realized my memories of me & my ex started to fade..

i dont even remember how my ex held me that day at the zoo cos i dont think i even hug my ex..

only putting my hand around his arm i guess..

cos my ex likes it that way..

but as for him, he hold me at my shoulders bringing me close to him under my small & flimsy umbrella..

it felt so..real.:))

then, i don't know i felt safe, & i just smiled under my breath..

without him knowing cos i don't want to think i'm a prevert or something..HAHA!!! >_<

he brought me to a open space "hawker" and eat..

i forgot what's the name but it's beside a club..

it's my first time not eating in a restaurant for this month..heh

cos i don't really like eating in a super hot & warm hawker center..>_<

but this is different as it's raining..

ate hokkien noodles ( bascially prawn noodles ), while he ate carrot cake with oyster.

he ordered mussles also and satay after that..

yea lots of food uh..yes..A LOT!!!

and that's our supper..Opps >_<

yes..to me, supper = FAT!!!! >_<

but for him, i'm okay with it..

maybe try not to eat too much the next day..

haha..

gave him his Christmas present then cabbed home..^-^

had a great Christmas this year..^-^

hopefully i can also have my Christmas with him next year again..^-^

but yeap..

more hopes = more disappointments..

so we'll wait & see..^-^

hees..

& MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE TO ALL!!! ^-^

Movie date with buddy..:DD

met buddy at chua chu kang..
suppose to go out with xiaosi & samantha but inthe end xiaosi couldn't make it so only meet samantha..:DD

gave her her christmas present..^-^
so glad that she likes it..^-^
then she felt so guilty that she treat me a movie..haha..so cute of her..
we watched "we bought a zoo"..
that movie is quite nice..
quite touching..cos kept crying at the ending part..>_< haha..

after that went to eat at ichiban sushi..:DD
hees..my favourite..:DDDD
SUSHI!!!! yums yums..

had a great day today..:DDD

Christmas party..:DDD

bestie invited me to her mini family christmas gathering..^-^

was late cos i met buddy before that for lunch..

ate ice cream, chatted..

had a great time spent with her..:DDD

anyways..

appreciated that bestie invited me to her house..:DD

had a great time there..

the food, the ambience, the family..

the laughter & chatters of the people,

totally..in the christmas mood..^-^

the food was great!! :DD

yums..

ham, turkey, the soup, salad, macaroni..^-^

after dinner some played wii while nicolette, kay (her friend) & me went to her room and did our pedicure & menicure..haha!!!
kay love to paint nails so she helped nicolette & me to paint our nails..haha

took some photos & of course not forgetting her boy..HAHAHA!!!

Me, Kay & Nicolette..:DD

very first time to open class..:DD

went to open class with mei today..^-^

both of us felt super nervous..HAHA!!

cos is like those people who joins open classes are pros..haha

overall the lesson is great..^-^

though i danced quite horrible, someday i'll improve..^-^

hees..

& no need to say, my meii got the talent..^-^

love her do her body wave..haha!!!

she can dance those sexy dance quite well if she's more open..

(haha!!! don't shy lah!!!)

teehee..^-^

after for so long..❤

kbox with lucky star today..

like finally..

it have been so long we last met..

i think like few months back?

haha..

met at 2 plus, went to kbox at cineleisure..

sing sang sung..

cam-whored..

chatted..

then dinner..^-^

great time spent today..^-^

Let's get buttered..:D

yeap!!

it's ladies night again..:DDD

now, i've been looking forward to every Wednesday..haha

cos it's clubbing day..:DDD

weee!!!!

went to Butter Factory with him today at Fullerton Hotel..:DD

he wanted to go Power House to meet my friends but i insist going to Butter Factory cos i wanna take a look there..:DD

& yea..

it's quite small & when it's midnight, the room is like super packed..>_<

we don't even have space to dance..-__-

super squeezy & the que is like super long just to get a drink for ladies..

so he exchanged his coupon for 3 drinks..

dink drank then went to the dance floor to dance..:DD

around 1 plus, we went to the nearest MacDonald for supper..hees

then wanted to walk to Marina Bay Sands but he gave up cos it's too far away & he's tired..HAHA!!!!

weak..cheyyyy...

cabbed home & yeap.:DD

had a great night..^-^

sakae with bestest buddy!!! :DD

meet buddy for brunch & chat session at sakae again :DDD

had cravings for sushi recently..HAHA!!!

so called her up & asked her out for lunch..:DD

as usual, we did lots of catching up while eating..^-^

love talking to her..& we always talk nonsense..HAHA!!

glad that we're getting along well now..^-^

It's another girly affair..^-^

yeap!!! it's Wednesday again!!!

WOOHOO!!! party time..:DDD

haha!!! this time did not manage to take any photos..>_<

am late..>_< heh..

meet Ben at Bouna Vista then headed to vivo city to meet Dusty, Saiful & Ray..:DD

my clique of friends are suppose to celebrate a birthday but unfortunately, the birthday girl cannot go..

so we went to party without her..>_<

went to our usual spot..

gallery bar..

drank tequila pop..:DD

taste really bad..but the feeling is great after drinking it..HAHA!!!

all was feeling high so went to the dance floor..

i swear we had fun on the dance floor..haha!!!

thou i don't really know how to dance, i just bounce & shake & yea..of course not forgetting to act as if you're drunk..HAHA!!! awkward max but fun..>_< haha..

after that my friends are drunk..-_-

haha..they puked & puked so went home around 1 plus 2am..haha

♥♥♥♥♥..

meet him for super early dinner at novena..:D

had texs chicken..

& yea..we thinks that KFC is much more better..haha

after our super early dinner, bus-ed down to marina square..

since it's still early so he decided to watch The Adventures of Tin Tin..:DD

the movie is nice..(Y)

though i've read that comic before..

after movie, walked to Marina Bay Sands to send him off for work..^-^

then train-ed home..:DD

hees..

sushi tei !!!

meet my bestest buddy for brunch today..^-^

super eggcited..

it have been such a long time i last saw her..>_<

went to have sushi at sushi tei..:DD

hees..

try out some new food..

hmmm not that bad..

chit chatted..:D

have loads of stuff to say..

haha!!!!

she shared with me about her school life & all..

and of course i shared mine too..^-^

felt super happy when talking to her..

& she's as usual..

weird character..

haha..

that's what i loved about her..

being weird..just like me..HAHA!!!!

anyways..

had a great brunch & chatting session with her..^-^

after brunch, went home & headed to work..

haha..sushi again..^-^

hees!!

last lesson of hiphop lll..

oh man!!! today is the last lesson of hiphop 3 & of course will not stop my dance here..

am gonna continue street jazz..:))

but the beginner class has already started..

so mei & i decided to wait for the next date..

while waiting, we're thinking to go for the open class..:))

though the show case is not so prepared due to the shortage of time, we did a great job..:D

had loads of fun..:DD

all the memories throughout hiphop 1-3 will always be remained..:))

Last time..

suppose to meet my friends for Immortals today..

but 2 of my friends overslept cos of club yst so it has been postponed..

so he texted & ask me if wanna meet up for Immortals..so i said okay cos since he wanna watch also..:D so accompanied him..^-^

went to The Cathay to catch the movie..

the movie is great..(Y)

Love the Gods in the movie..

& the female lead is like super hot can!!!! ^-^

after the movie, he went to work while i go home..^-^

he took a cab to work due to the rain & drop me off at the mrt station..

& Contracts ends today for the 2nd time..

haha..

bid goodbye & the contract is extended..LOL!!!!

anyways had a nice day today...^-^

It's Wednesday!!!!! Let's pop..HAHAHA!!! ♥

Let's Party!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

It's a Wednesday today!!

He's off today so asked me out to club..^-^

& since it's a ladies night, & entrance fee & drinks are free for all ladies so i agreed to go..haha

Just nice my friends are going also..:))

so..

meet him outside vivo city..

then walked to St James Power Station together..

then meet my friends inside..

didn't know there's this door which will lead to another room..:))

though it's a smoking area, but it's not crowded..^-^

chilled, talked & drink there..

had my virgin tequila pop..^-^

haha..

the alcohol actually taste like sprite..^-^

but my friends say it taste awful..haha!!!

he puked..

LOL!!!

&& am super happy that i did not puke or get sick though i only drink 2 cups & already drunk but but i enjoyed myself that night..^-^

woohoo!!!

after all the drinking, went to the dance floor..

then to the smoking area..

chilled there for awhile..

my friends continue their dancing while me & him stayed at the smoking area & chat..^-^

we decided to leave at 3am..

time flies..

& it's 3am..

at first my friends wanted to have "supper" at the food republic, they ended up going home..HAHA!!!

so he & i shared a cab home..^-^

had a great night out today..:))

Happy Feet 2..^-^ ♥

my zilian photo at the end of the day...♥

didn't know i am actually pretty..:))

HAHA!!!! (self-praise)

went to marina square to meet a friend today..

an awkward meeting for the very first time..HAHA!!

meet him at the ticket booth..

didn't know what he looked like..

so just stand there and wait for him..

then suddenly come this guy..

he appears from no where then started to walk in circles around me..

haha!!

weird uh..

anyways..

wanted to watch Immortals but running out of seats so decided to watch Happy Feet 2 instead..:))

*Happy* hees..

the movie that i've wanted to watch..^-^

those baby penguins in the movie are super cuteee..^-^

haha..

the rapping, dancing & the singing by the penguins are awesome!!!! (Y)

fell in love with penguins after watching Happy Feet..^-^

hees..

after movie walked to Marina Bay Sands with him then he's off to work while i went home..^-^

B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L..

Try dragging this picture & see what will happen..:))

Jayley & Hayley..:D

have been reading this particular blog..

& she's JAYLEY ( click on her name to read her blog ) !!!! :D

she's a great blogger & she dared to dream..

she had such a great attitude & her fashion is like WOW!!!!

yes..WOW!!!

&& she's 1 year younger than me..*gosh*

she's like impressive luh!!! (Y)

She & her twin sister are my favourite blogger..:D

&& they studied at the same school as me..:)))

hees..

i guess some even knew her cos she appeared on tv..:D

a tv programme about blogger & there she is..:D

i can say she dares to dream..

unlike me..

>__<

dare to dream but don't dare to put in action..

she had attended many events & photo shoots..

& made me feel interested in trying out photo shoots too..:DDD

haha but the thing is that i'm not as pretty as her & i don't have a nice figure like her too..>__<

it'll be great if i can do something new like collaboration or something..haha

but i've got ZERO experience though..

there are people who pm-ed my on facebook to do some photo shoots for them but i don't dare to accept because i'm not actually exactly how i look like in my pictures..LOL

i have zits on my face!!!!! >___<

& i'm fat..*urgh*

&& i'm afraid it's some spam thingy then yea..sigh..

such a wimp..-___-

any ways, am willing to try out if i got the chance..:D

hees..

i've grown older & everything must try right!!! haha

nothing can be done if i'm being like so afraid of this & that..hmm

jiayous ROLINDA!!!!! :D

awww...isn't he sweet..^-^

那些年，我們一起追的女孩..♥.

met ahyi for lunch at sakae sushi ..:D

love those salmon sashimi..*drools*

my all time favourite..SALMON SASHIMI!!!! ♥♥♥

after lunch, watched this awesome movie with ahyi...

wanted to watch this movie alone but in the end since ahyi is having her leave so i asked her out..

at the same time go shop for my heels..:D

the movie was really AWESOME!!!!!

cried during some of the parts as it reminds me of my first love..

hmmm..

‎"恋爱最美好的是暧昧的时候"..

yeap..this is totally true..

in a relationship, honeymoon period is always the sweetest..

the ending is quite sad..

there's this sentence i don't really agree with it..

it says, loving someone is to see them happy..

but if you really love someone, what they're hoping for is YOU to make them happy..

you DON'T see them being happy..

even so, they're happy is not because of you as they found someone who really can make them happy & bring them happiness..

so yeap..

actually other than sad part, there are some funny scene as well..

it'll actually make you laugh until you tear..

haha!!!

so those who haven't watch, GO & WATCH NOW NOW NOW!!!! :DD

after movie, bus-ed to far east to shop..

then Pontian noodle for dinner..:D

yum yums..

&& HAPPY SISTERHOOD DAY TO MY BELOVED MEII !!!!! LOVE HER LOADS!!!! ♥.♥.♥.♥.♥.♥.

I must learn to be positive..^0^

shall blog about positivity today..:)

hmmm i'm a girl who can be positive & negative..

i'm an insecure girl as i would think negative about myself..

Especially when i see another girl who is more attractive than me, i'll like of look down on myself & envy her instead but i know it's a BIG NO NO to feel this way..

so, sometimes i'll say something positive to encourage myself so that it can feel better..heh >_<

i don't know if i'm being too humble or what..

but i just find other girls are better than me & i'm like just ordinary girl/just another girl that no one notice..sad uh..haha

any ways, i must really really learn to be more positive so that i can be a more happy person..:D

so yeap..today is 11/11/11..

what are you wishing for?? :D

hmm..my wish for 11/11/11 is simple..

everyone in this world to be happy..:D

When you’re staring at your crush and he/she looks back at you..

isn't this hedgehog cute..:D

HAHA!!!

yeap i guess when you’re staring at your crush and he/she looks back at you, you'll be like this hedgehog..

haha..*blush*

I've learnt to live half a life..

Just like what mei have been telling me..

When in a relationship, the first or second month is called as the honeymoon period because it is always the sweetest period..

Indeed its true..

that first and a half month is my most happiest moment in my life..(:

& after that it's totally horrendous..

after that honeymoon period, i'm like living in hell..

he made me totally numb now..

good & bad..

good : i'm no longer the naive Rolinda..(:

bad : i've no more feelings but i'm able to make myself happy & free again..(:

he made me grow & of course worked harder for myself & of course love myself more..(:

I won't let him make me forget the value of myself, that i'm special & deserve to be treated with respect too..(:

mei & my girlfriends kept telling me that i can't go on torturing myself by keeping & trying so hard to keep this relationship going & they said that i deserve someone better..

i'm so stubborn that i ignored their kind advise that lead me to become so devastated..

i'm really sorry & i'm thankful for having them throughout my sad moments..

i LOVEEEE them loads..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

i think i can't pull through this without them..(:

last but not least..

all the best to me..(:

JIAYOU ROLINDA!!!! ^-^

Just as i knew it..

yeap..

i'm right..

but you lied..

anyways..

everything is really over & i'm moving on..

sad, heartbroken but life still have to move on right? :)

yeap..

many things are going through my mind while showering this morning..

did some self-reflection while showering & realised everything seems to make sense now..:)

i was like why do i do this to just make my life so miserable after all this shit..

i finally realised everything do makes sense now..

all this are fake..& he didn't even make me his official..

plus i put in too much in all this & i did my best..:D

the happy thing is i'm glad i didnt just try to be a Nice GF..

i DO my best to be his GF & i guess i didn't work out for him..

yes..to me, he is the one but to him, i'm not..

so even if i tried to talk sense to him or cry my heart out or beg him,

i wont get his feelings back..

& by doing this, it makes me feel like a dog or some desperate woman..

haha..

luckily i didn't do all this shit..

i'm glad that we used to be together because even though It was only for a moment, it's okay. As it was exactly what I wanted..^-^

so yeap..am thankful for that short period of time..

because of him, he made me experience what is heartbroken & how it feels like being toyed with by a guy..

this experience have made me learnt not to fall in love so easily & deeply & not to trust so easily (especially sweet talkers)..

& yes it hurts damn bad..T^T

he's happy now as he found someone he truly love most & i'm glad for him..

i've got nothing to say but just wish him all the best & he can approach me whenever he needs a friend or a listener or an advisor..:) haha..

yup..but still i just hope that he can grow up mentally & not let his family worried about him..

i know i'm in no stand to care about him any more but yup, am born to be caring so....yea..am kind-hearted..haha..^-^

&&& before i end..

HAPPY 1st MONTH TO ME..:D

shall head to bed now..

goodnight everyone..(:

Q.T : j tujmm mpwf zpv

gpvoe pvu tpnfuijoh gvo up qmbz xjui..iziz

feeling confused eh..

haha..

anyways..

had a great time meeting kathleen today thou its only for a few hours..

accompanied her to search for her tank top..

had a great time chatting with her while shopping for her tank top..haha

sigh..

guess all my girlfriends are right..

i shouldn't hold on any more..

he's not mine any more thou i keep hopping so..

it's hard..super hard..>_<

sigh..

it's really saddening that i gave love a chance, i trust in love again but..

i loved the wrong one..Again..instead i got myself badly hurt..yes Again..>_<

and yes Again..i'm back to my shell & will never come out i guess..

this time for real..it's gonna be difficult guys..

am sorry but i'm trying to protecting myself from getting hurt again..

i dont want & can't go through this torment again..

& yeap..hoping at the same time..unless things changed..heh

i wont regret anything as i did my best & i have what i've always long wanted so yeap..

i dont know why..

whenever i want to give up, a little voice of me told me to hold on & wait, give him some time..

maybe he is "meant" for me but i'm not meant for him..

haha..in my dreams..yea i dream a lot..

like those fairy tales & happily ever after & those "he's my first & my last"..

nah..everything is just a story..i feel so silly back then..

haha..read too much fairy tales or watched too much movies..

this earth is reality & reality is not as fantasy as in real life..haha

but it just made me feel lonelier..

plus Christmas & New Year is coming & i have to celebrate this special season alone..yes Again..T^T

Pathetic much uh..

yea..i didnt see it coming so early either..

i have many plans planned ahead..

Christmas with him, counting down to 2012 with him, watching the beautiful fireworks in his arms this year & my first Valentine's day with him & etc..

oh wells..have to forgo all this now..

sad but true..T^T

its the reality..

sometimes i heard people say that things will change to the better & the wait is worthwhile if you don't give up..

i didn't cos i believe..(:

even if left with 0.01%, i still wanna give it a try..

yea i know it'll hurt me but i just dont care..

stubborn..-__-

okay..my mei gonna knock me on the head if she reads this..heh >_<

i know i'm stubborn, silly & learn things the hard way..

erm..real hard that kind..heh..>_<

cos yea..i still can't convinced myself..T^T

my mei so gonna kill me after she reads this..heh..>_<

oops..

yea..my close friends have seen it & felt it except me..

sigh..

it is indeed blind..>_<

jiayous bahx..

this silly girl is still hoping & waiting..heh

Q.T : j tujmm mpwf zpv..

Cool or what? hmm..♥

45 things to be happy about..^-^

Bold the happy things that i’ve experienced before:)

1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the supermarket.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail.

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favourite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshake … (or vanilla … or strawberry!)

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.

14. A good conversation.

15. The beach

16. Finding a 20-pound note in your coat from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself.

18. Eye contact with a hot member of the opposite sex.

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

22. Having someone tell you that you’re beautiful/good looking.

23. Laughing at an inside joke.

24. Friends.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.

27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

29. Playing with a new puppy.

30. Having someone play with your hair.

31. Sweet dreams.

32. Hot chocolate.

33. Road trips with friends.

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

36. Making chocolate chip cookies (and eating them…!).

37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.

38. Holding hands with someone you care about.

39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.

40. Watching the expression on someone’s face as they open a much-desired present from you.

41. Watching the sunrise.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another beautiful day.

43. Knowing that somebody misses you.

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

45. Knowing you’ve done the right thing, no matter what other people think.

i've experienced all this..(:

& it really feels AWESOME!!! especially with someone we care..:D

how about you? (:

what is love?

What exactly is love?

How do you define love?

Hmmmm..to me..

Love does not exist..

Love is just a word that replace a feeling..

According to a person, feelings fade..

Love = feeling & feelings fade = love is no longer there.

:'(

does he?