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feeling confused eh..

haha..

anyways..

had a great time meeting kathleen today thou its only for a few hours..

accompanied her to search for her tank top..

had a great time chatting with her while shopping for her tank top..haha

sigh..

guess all my girlfriends are right..

i shouldn't hold on any more..

he's not mine any more thou i keep hopping so..

it's hard..super hard..>_<

sigh..

it's really saddening that i gave love a chance, i trust in love again but..

i loved the wrong one..Again..instead i got myself badly hurt..yes Again..>_<

and yes Again..i'm back to my shell & will never come out i guess..

this time for real..it's gonna be difficult guys..

am sorry but i'm trying to protecting myself from getting hurt again..

i dont want & can't go through this torment again..

& yeap..hoping at the same time..unless things changed..heh

i wont regret anything as i did my best & i have what i've always long wanted so yeap..

i dont know why..

whenever i want to give up, a little voice of me told me to hold on & wait, give him some time..

maybe he is "meant" for me but i'm not meant for him..

haha..in my dreams..yea i dream a lot..

like those fairy tales & happily ever after & those "he's my first & my last"..

nah..everything is just a story..i feel so silly back then..

haha..read too much fairy tales or watched too much movies..

this earth is reality & reality is not as fantasy as in real life..haha

but it just made me feel lonelier..

plus Christmas & New Year is coming & i have to celebrate this special season alone..yes Again..T^T

Pathetic much uh..

yea..i didnt see it coming so early either..

i have many plans planned ahead..

Christmas with him, counting down to 2012 with him, watching the beautiful fireworks in his arms this year & my first Valentine's day with him & etc..

oh wells..have to forgo all this now..

sad but true..T^T

its the reality..

sometimes i heard people say that things will change to the better & the wait is worthwhile if you don't give up..

i didn't cos i believe..(:

even if left with 0.01%, i still wanna give it a try..

yea i know it'll hurt me but i just dont care..

stubborn..-__-

okay..my mei gonna knock me on the head if she reads this..heh >_<

i know i'm stubborn, silly & learn things the hard way..

erm..real hard that kind..heh..>_<

cos yea..i still can't convinced myself..T^T

my mei so gonna kill me after she reads this..heh..>_<

oops..

yea..my close friends have seen it & felt it except me..

sigh..

it is indeed blind..>_<

jiayous bahx..

this silly girl is still hoping & waiting..heh

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