Bleeding..

still crying..

head start to ache..>_<

& blah blah..

you still wouldnt careless..

sad to the max..

sometimes it just felt this way..

cried alittle again in the morning..

i seriously dont know what to do..

got a text from bf..

dono to be happy or not..

hmm..

missed him alot but maybe he just dont realised it..

same shit happens again..

eye swollen..

have to send brother off to airport at 5pm..

mei came..

luckily i still have her..

so nice of her to just come & accompany me to send my brother off..

no matter what..

i'm still thankful tat i got her..

went pizza hut for dinner..

then train-ed home..

as usual..

missed bf alot..

was waiting for his text but just received some..

hmm..

i wish i could communicate with him more..

but yea..

i guess i just dont understand him..

played a prank on him..

he got real mad..

hmm..

sometimes i knew i went too far..

but i did those is simply just want to get his attention..

reached home ard 9 plus..

still no text from bf..

he sure is mad like hell..sigh..

cried again..

i just feel like crying, dono why..

at some point of time, i'll just stone then suddenly my tears just flow down from my cheeks..

i'm crying again..unknowingly..

its alr 3 plus am..still no replies..

i'm desperate..

i just feel like i'm living a single life..

or worst..

i felt neglected,

i felt tat i'm not important,

i felt tat i'm not cared by you anymore,

i felt tat i'm a burden to you,

i felt useless,

i felt tat i only bring you trouble & stress to you..

this feeling sucks..

& am crying again..:'(

i'm just really really hurt..

i dont know what to do..

now..

my head hurts like hell..

am not gonna think anymore..

maybe i'm too paranoid..sigh..

:'(

dance..

dance lesson is super hectic today..

super "hiong"..

LOL..

changed of instructor cos an an went to japan..

so another instructor replaced her..

new dance steps by the new instructor is quite furious..

cant catch it the first few times..

but slowly, i got hold of the steps..:)

weeee........

did not meet dearest lately..

cos he's busy with his projects..

& it made me misses him like mad..>_<

i cant help it..

cried at night before i sleep cos i miss him so much it hurts..

i bet he didnt know abt it..

hmm..

he's out with his frens for dinner then gaming sessions after that..

glad tat he's chilling out..

but..i felt like i was totally left out..-_-

its super depressing tat i'm waiting for his texts but nth came..

felt emo then yea..

as usual..

cry..-_-

i just dono what to do but to cry my heart out..

i need someone to be here but i've no one..:(

i dont know where is he,

i dont know what he's doing,

i dont know anything..

i just felt useless..

quarrelled abit..

i just..i dont know..

i'm just confused at times..

i dont know what to do..

i...really dont know.............

its our 3rd..:))

meeting dearest at his sch today..:)

so sweet of him suggesting to meet up today for a short date..:))

cos did not expect tat he would ask due to his hectic work..

gave him his 3rd mth gift then headed to AMK Hub..:D

watched "The Smurfs"..:D

nice movie..:D

then dinner at pepper lunch after that..:D

home sweet home after that..

am sooo happy spending time with him..

how i wish i could meet him often..hmm

I SMURF YOU!!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

lantern festival..:((

went to look for dearest at his sch..

miss him alot!!!

but he looks super stressed out..:(

*heart hurts* seeing him in this manner..

no smiles but frowning..-_-

hmm..always like to keep things to himself..

hope one day he can be more open to me..>_<

alot went through my mind..

went fb..

all my frens went to play lantern & candles & sparkles with her bf but not me..

i felt quite depressed..

they had fun but just not me..LOL

emo-ed for awhile, cried abit then..

got an unexpected text from dearest saying "am so happy tat you came" with the "weee" behind..

LOL..i felt tat was alittle fake but..

it warmed my heart..

was waiting for his text..^-^

& yeap..

had a good night..:)

so everything tat i missed out today was kind of forgiven..

hmmm..

sighh..

war at home..:((

feeling so sad & lost..

how i wish you were here to hold me..

fruitful & meaningful early sisterhood day..:D

went to do volunteering with mei today cos suddenly dearest is sick..

so worried for him ttm..

sick still wanna meet up..x/

asked him to stay at home & rest instead..

wanted to go to his house to visit him & keep him accompany but his mom need to do sth so didnt go..he can have plenty of rest too..:D

train-ed to sengkang then bus-ed to the destination..

had a great time with mei today..:D

totally enjoyed myself..:D

LOVE MEI LOADS!!! ♥♥♥♥♥

niece turns 6..:D

went to meet bf at cityhall..:D

travelled to tiong baru with bf to ahyi house..:D

ate zhu chao..:D

bf first time meeting daddy.:D

hees..

& also first time dinner-ing with dad..:))

after that went up to ahyi house for cake cutting..:D

then home sweet home..:D

meet dearest..

missed dearest alot..

so i cant hold my temptation..

went all the way to his sch just to see him..

BEST DAY EVER!! :)