samantha is here..:D

meeting samantha in the noon for lunch at wcp..

then headed to sheng siong to buy some snacks while watching the movie..:D

watched a thai movie called "suckseed"..

time really flies when we're having fun..

after that went to clementi mall walk walk..

chatted..

then send her off to wait for her bus..:))

finally a proper date..:D

finally manage to go out with dearest..

felt super happy can..^-^

meet boyfriend at orchard..

went to far east for his haircut..

after that went to have our early dinner at ayam phyet or sth..forgot how to spell that..

nice fried chicken plus very shiok chilli..:D

yums yums!!!! ^0^

then dearest treat me the "roadside" ice cream..:D

have sudden craving for that..:D hees..

happy girl..

headed to 313 somerset to see if my shoes have any sales..but sadly the price is still the same..>_<

walked to Plaza Singapura..

hang ard there..

then home sweet home..:D

felt so happy when i'm with dearest..

& i'm really blessed to have him loving me so much..:D

& of course!!! i LOVE him too lots & lots of love..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

*hees*

forever not good enough..:/

working today again..

felt tat i've neglected my boyfriend..>_<

work is ok until at night..

hmm..

got said by that chef again..is like wtf lah!!

why me!!!

felt super accused again..

i'm just cant get it with the stupid tonkatsu & katsu don..fuck man!!

humans make mistakes right!!

& i did ask the customer that he wants only the cutlet only & he said yes..

wtf!! say chicken katsu don also cannot izzit!!!

cant blame the customers anyways..

they're always right..:/

ordered wrongly & i knew the stupid chef is going to make a fuss out of it..

felt so super pissed..

at myself also..

i feel like crying man..

he told the female supervisor to tell me tat the kitchen crew is very pissed abt it & want me to pay the food out of my own pocket..

wtf!! is like i go is to fucking work & EARN money..NOT spend the fucking money..

if really like tat, i rather dont work then spend my money just for one fucking mistake i did..

is like i'm so stupid lah!!

wtf..

i just cant get things right!!!

super feel like punching myself..

plus i super hate cheenas!!!

i'm short so what!!

do u think i want to be short!!!

u cheenas just fucking dont know how hurtful it is..dumb ass..

u arent tall as well..

so u fucking shut up & just do ur damn work..

this time i had enough..

i'm not bloody talking to anyone..

gonna shut myself up..

am only talking to those who helped me ONLY..

hmmm..

wipe away ur tears & smile..everything will be fine..:) i swear..

JIAYOUS ROLINDA!!!!

how i wish i can just go to bed & wakes up finding tat i'm tall, fair, slim, zits free & pretty the next morning..

i'm forever never going to be good enough..x/

cried again..:'(

feeling lonely again..

hugged my pooh to sleep..

cant stop thinking..T^T

but suddenly received a morning text from boyfriend..

alil of me smiled inside..^-^

dance as usual..

had dance lesson..:D

weet weet..:D

but after that not meeting dearie as he went for the IT training..

so yeap..after dance went to the wanton noodle shop for dessert as i'm not hungry..

kind of loss of appetite..maybe due to my period..-_- *argh*

yeap..after that alicia & mei stop by to buy nail polish..

was holding the temptation..

haha..

saving $$..-_-

*hmmm*

plus i dont always get the chance to polish my nails..

cos of work..sigh...

anyways, its okay..;))

cos it can help me save money too..haha..^-^

work with dearie..:D

so happy that i'm working with dearest for the very first time..:D

working with boyfriend is sth that i can ever dream of..:B

hees..

after work, we hanged ard raffles place..

chit chat, played, laughed, hugged..:D

i love my boyfriend loads!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

cried T^T

cried today..

didnt really text bf much lately..

felt super emo..

felt like he's drifting away..

felt like he's not caring..

hmm..

am so lonely..

so lonely until i felt like sometimes, at a moment, i even can forget tat i alr got a bf..

if i dont wear his shirt or look at my wallpaper, i'll thought tat it was only just a dream..

i'm so silly right..hmm

i felt insecure..x/

everything is just running wild inside of my head..

i cant help it but tears just keep flowing down whenever i try not to think..

kana scolded *humph*

worked today..

quite busy..

was in the middle section today & i'm like the only one watching over there..

the runner gave me the wrong slip, thus i served the food to the wrong table..

customer ask me why his chasyu ramen have no chasyu..

so i went to ask..

then i got shouted at by the chef inside..

was super pissed cos how would i know there's how many bowls of chasyu ramen in total!!

i'm not even inside..

was super pissed and felt accused by the chef..

i was so furious until my ears have turned red..

but since am working so i shall just take the blame & swallow it down..

hmm..super moody day at work..

i thought i enjoyed working..

but i was wrong now..:((

i'm working for the sake of working only..

anyways i must jiayous!!!!

just breathe & smile..:D

moses birthday chalet..

left house ard 2 plus pm to meet Amelia at bugis to buy Moses's birthday decorations..

then met her friend, su ann..

then got our stuffs then headed to Eunos first then to Pasir Ris Coastal Sand Resort..

dear is there alr..

so excited to meet him..:D

haha..

left the chalet with dearest ard 11 plus i guess..

cos the last train has ended..>_<

so..

bus-ed to bedok then took a cab there home..

luckily the fare is not so ex..:D

phew..

love dear ttm..:D

T.G.I.F..:D

woots!!!

dance as usual today..:D

haven start on the routine yet..

but still..

lesson is FUN as always..:D

hees..

after dance met dear as usual..:D

went to eat wanton noodle with mei & baodong..:D

yums..

after dinner, chatted with boyfriend..:D

walk walk..

then home sweet home..:D

love spending time with dearest..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

went to dear's place & surprise him..*hees*

had class in the afternoon..

was thinking what am i going to do after class..

so suddenly thought of boyfriend..

plus i didnt get to see him so often now..

misses him alot..

at first, i was thinking to buy bubble tea after class & enjoy it at home..

but instead, i've decided to go to boyfriend's place & surprise him..:D

hees..

after class, i left in a hurry, hoping that i can see him quickly..haha..

was quite worried that he's not at home & my trip to Bedok is a total waste..

thought i would get lost but in the end i managed to go to the right place..:D

MUAHAHA!!! *i'm a genius*

finally get to meet dear..:D

miss him soo soo much!!!
haha..

super hungry so went to bedok point for lunch..:D

had curry rice..:D

wee wee..happy girl..:DD

hees..

after that dear brought me to a provision shop..

was amazed by the stuffs there..

it got all the baking stuff & all..

its super cool lah..:D

somemore quite cheap..:D

hees..

then boyfriend accompanied me to wait for the bus..:D

then home sweet home..:D

dear's surprise failed..haha!!

meeting dear today..

he said wanna give me a surprise but he failed..

LOL..

his surprise is that he's bringing me to watch "twisted"..:D

thou failed cos is i keep bugging him to watch..

but am happy cos can see him..:))

after movie, suppose to meet daddy for dinner but most of my workmates are sick so decided to change to other day..

dont wanna bring daddy & boyfriend go eat & ended up getting sick too..

so after movie, had duck rice for dinner..:D

yums...

first duck rice with deary..

cos have been eating restaurant when we're at town..

after dinner, went suntec wif boyfriend..

walk walk, chat chat then rested..

leg aching from all the long walks..haha..

went home ard 10pm plus..

dont wanna miss the last train..haha..

had a great day..:D

hiphop 2 !!! :D

first lesson of hiphop 2..:D

weeeeee!!!!

super eggcited..:D

cos two of my frens signed up for hiphop 2 too..:D

happy happy..:D

learnt hand wave, recap body wave & steve martin..:D

after lesson..

meet deary..:D

misses him loads!!!

gave him a BIG teddy bear huggie..:D

haha..

had pasta mania for dinner with mei & bao dong..:D

after that, mei & baodong went home first..

while dear & me walked to Douby Ghaut as usual..

sat on the bench as usual..

chatted and stuff..:D

then ard 10 plus home sweet home..:D

had a great day today..:D

& not forgetting HAPPY SISTERHOOD DAY TO MY DEAREST XIAOMEI!!!! LUB LUB ALWAYS!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

happy birthday singapore!!!

dear & his sister's boyfriend went swimming on the skypark..

the view is super nice..:D

i regretted i didnt bring my swimsuit along..-_-

*regrets*

*argh*

his sister & her boyfriend went back to the room first..

hanged around with bf..

chatted..

then he said sth that hurts me..

felt so emo..x(

we sort of quarrelled..

sighs..always..

felt super hurt the way he treated me in front of his family..

oh wells..

anyways..

enjoyed my stay there..

thou his quite disappointing..

went to Marina Square to have our brunch..

had Burger King..:D

then meeting his friend & his gf for the National Day Parade right outside the Marina Bay Sand shopping mall..:))

the weather is blazing hot!!! xs

then at ard 6 plus, the parade starts..

super eggcited..:D

this year its alittle special..:D

cos this year am celebrating National Day with boyfriend..♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

had our hand painted..:D

this year's fireworks are so beautiful & its longer than previous year..:D

after that..

home sweet home..:D

marina bay sands!! :D

dearest & me..:D

his sister & mom..:D

first day of sch today..:D

sooo happy tat i manage to go to diploma course..

thought would fail my marketing & business management paper..

haha..x/

school ended at 6.30pm then headed straight to raffles place to meet boyfriend..

staying at Marina Bay Sands with his family..

super excited..

but oh wells..

yups..

had dinner with his family & one of his sister's friend..

it was great..:D

then hang around..

then head to bed..

he got upset..-_-

& he behaved like a little kid whose mummy dont allow him to buy candy..

i was like what the..-_- LOLs much..-_-

last lesson of hiphop 1..

today is the last lesson of hiphop 1..

cant wait for hiphop 2..:D

wonder how the lesson is going to be..hees..

as usual..

after lesson, dear meet me, mei & baodong for dinner..

had KFC for dinner..:D

yums..

didnt eat KFC for quite some time..

haha..

ate cheesy crunch with deary..:B

miss dear soooooooooooo much..x)

is like i only get to meet him like once or twice a week...x/

love my boyfriend..♥

>_<..

i hate to be in the dark..>_<

it freaks me out..x/

this is what will happen when i'm alone in a room without any light..>_<

*ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

okkay..

nowadays i've been leaving my lamp on for the whole night..

cos am super afraid of the dark..>_<

*yikes*

when dad's at home, he'll like come into my room and off that lamp..

cos dad says the electricity is expensive..

but i'm sacred..>_<

heh..

told daddy that when i off the light, my room got lots of noises..

like plastic noises & stuff..

i just dont feel safe then i cant get to sleep..>_<

dad say that i think too much or i felt guilty inside cos i did sth bad..

but the thing is why got noises de..>_<

oh my tian..

so yeap..i'll still on my lamp every night & dad will switch it off when i fell asleep..heh..>_<

so..

are u guys afraid of the dark like i do??

love in a disney movie..

isn't it cool if our life is like a disney movie?

cos............

It’ll happen unexpectedly

When I look at him it’ll give me butterflies.

It’ll be hard not to blush when I think of him.

He will be romantic.

We will go on wild adventures,

And never feel like we have to grow up.

____________________________________________________________________

went shopping yst @ vivo city..:D

went forever 21 in search for my "mature" dress for this Sunday's dinner with bf family..:))

super eggcited can..haha

so i choose carefully for that particular dress..

thou this month's design is not really what i liked but i have to try to change my taste right?

haha..no more "kiddy" clothing..

so....picked a nice tube dress with lots of little flowers on it..

thou its not really what i wanted but still..

i LOVE it..:D haha..

its quite affordable actually..compared to those at Bugis street..

mature clothings & i'm willing to spend a sum once in awhile so yeap..:D

am happy tat i found that dress like how i found my bf..*teehee*

went to topshop & zara & mango too..

but clothing from there, the prices are way over my budget..

all is like over 50 bucks..

49 is okay but for a dress..i'll feel heartache after tat..unless its a gown or sth very extraordinary..

haha..:))

my all times favourite shops are cotton on, rubi, forever 21 & newlook..

all my shoes are bought from there too..:D haha..

especially newlook & rubi..

forever cannot resist those heels!!! woohoo!!!

how i wish those rags of heels are mine..*drools*

but prices are super expensive in newlook..

got one heel that caught my eye the other day when i was out with bf..

but the heel is like 80 bucks..sad to the max..>_<

hope there'll be discounts..to like at least 60 bucks or 50..

then am gonna get that..:D *teehee*

*cant wait*

tats all peeps..:D

nites nites..:))

hmmm...

"i love my 亲爱的。。♥"

meet ting ting in the morning to give her last min POA revision..

her exam is at 3.45pm so i meet her in the mac @ 10.30am..

ard 11 plus am, bought nuggets meal as brunch..

then ard 12pm they changed to the lunch promotion..

i was like wth!!! cheated my feelings..LOL..

seriously luh..

i bought the meal at $7.05 then the lunch meal is $4.50..

i can save alot!!! *argh*

so stupid of me..

oh wells..

learnt a lesson..hahas..

next tym i'll wait till 12pm then buy..haha!!

then hanged ard at the mall..

went to popular to buy some stuff..:D

bus-ed home..

stayed at home whole day..

then went back to clementi mall to buy groceries..

realised theres no more food in the refrigerator..>_<

after much shopping in the market, its time to go home & i'm hungry..>_<

like super hungry..

hahas..

at night msn-ed bf..

having dinner with his family this Sunday..

&& its his family asked me if i want to come along..^-^

super eggcited can..:D

haha..

but many not to dos from bf..

felt super sad..

i'm being me & he's telling me no to this not to that..

i understand that why he's being like that cos he knows his family best..

so i'll just follow & do whatever he says lorr..

i dont want to have a bad impression to his family too..

so yea..

thou its not me..

but i still have to be me right?

cos i dont want to be someone whom i'm not & i also dont want to pretend to be someone that i'm not..so either they accept me or what luh..

yea..

cried when bf told me not to this not to that blah blah..

felt super emotional..

emotions are running wild inside me..

i hate picky guys & there..my bf is one..

he's not only picky but fussy too..-_-

"buay tahan.."

simply, my bf has all the character that i hate..

i even wondered to myself that have i made the wrong decision by choosing him..?

but but he's sweet enough to be understandable & are willing to change his habit just for me..*touched* :')

no guy tries so hard to keep me..like never..not even once..

but no matter what negative thoughts i had, i'll always love him & only him..

idk why but i just have this feeling inside me tat tells me he's meant for me but the other side just cant stop suspecting that i've made the wrong choice..

so......in this case.."action speaks louder than words" must come in..

so am waiting for him to change for the better & i'll always be there to support him even if he dont..:))

so yeap..

心痛比快乐更真实。。